GOOD NEWS!!!! The CT scan showed I probably don't need surgery! That means recovery should be shorter. A big,big,big,big thank you to everyone who sent prayers and healing thoughts and good energy and please keep 'em coming. It ain't over yet but there is light on the horizon.
So what's all this mean? I heard Oprah say once that God sends us what we need to heal and I believe that. That's why children of alcoholics either grow up and become one or marry one. Which, by the way, I did. As a child of highly functional alcoholics I married one, and then divorced him. My intention here is not to rank on him. He's currently battling lung, liver, and brain cancer with more courage and tenacity than I think I could muster and I pray for him everyday. If you feel moved to do that too please do so.
But being born into a family that neither planned, wanted, nor welcomed me I incurred some lifelong trust issues, to put it mildly. I have been fiercely independent most of my life mainly because the people I looked to for support or help in my early life quite simply let me down and said,"no" even if all I asked for was a hug. As I have gotten older the thing I fear most is having to ask for help (a request which has historically been denied) or needing support (which usually didn't come). So here I sit typing in my son and daughter-in-law's bed, waiting for them to come home and cook for me, depending on my daughter or daughter-in-law to wash my hair, do my laundry, put on my socks, etc., etc., etc., and needing my son to drive to my house 20 miles away to feed my animals once a day (like he doesn't have enough to do already with a big job and 2 kids).
So, yup, Spirit sends us what we need to heal. I hope maybe that insight helps you in some way in your life.
BTW - here's a correction from the last post. I have been told the dog does NOT lick her privates at 3:00 a.m. - she is licking her leg. OK. It still sounds like a cat yackin' up a furball.
A new insight - I really like drinking out of bendy straws. They're fun. :o)
No comments:
Post a Comment